This last year, life has been throwing me a few curve balls. It’s never fun when that happens since these curveballs seem to be more discouraging than positive in nature.
Over time, I have come to expect the unexpected. When I was first diagnosed with breast cancer it was considered pre-cancer. By the time I had my bi-lateral mastectomies that diagnosis changed. I went from DCIS – Stage 0, to Lobular Cancer – Stage 1. I never expected there to be a surprise, but there I was sitting there at a follow-up appointment learning the news. I wasn’t devastated by the news given to me. I wasn’t even shocked.
I learned to take things in stride after that. One of my life mottos became “Always Expect the Unexpected.” It’s not the best way to live, but it works for me. So when I had my hip MRI to see what was causing so much pain, I wasn’t shocked to hear other issues may be going on. There was an increase in bone density, believed to be a bone island. However, because of my breast cancer history, a bone scan was needed. The concern of cancer came back immediately.
Also present on that MRI was what they believed to be cysts on an ovary and a fibroid in my uterus. Both are not uncommon in your child-bearing years. Again, this was a concern due to my cancer history and warranted a further investigation. A pelvic ultrasound was in my future.
Will these curveballs ever stop being thrown my way? Probably not. This is where I definitely need to expect the unexpected. If I didn’t, my life would be turned upside down. If I didn’t, depression and worry would strike. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t be able to function in my daily life. I realized that preparing myself mentally for what could come my way could potentially save me a lot of heartache.
For now, life goes on as usual. I can hold my head up high knowing my bone scan came up clear. I will still expect more curveballs in the foreseeable future. After all, what’s life without having bumps?
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